Today I feel like I have accomplished a lot

I went to bed really late last night, so I got up at like 11am.. And that wasn't my full 8 hours, haha! Anyways, When we got up we had a chat with Erics mommy, and decided we were going to head to walkerton to pick up my mommys exerciser that she was giving me. We picked up a stepper and a cabinet to go above the toilet in the upstairs bathroom to hold all of my girly stuff.. lol yay!! :) So we got those, and on the way down I got hot chocolte and candy cane donughts!! Isn't that great?

See how pretty I am with a donught smile? Isn't it just super duper great. Anywayss.. we had a lovely journey to my mommys. Eric got to see the new house, and help unload some stuff lol. We unfortunatly couldn't stay very long, becuase Eric had to be home in time for work, so it was a lovely short visit with 3 of my favourite people. One thing I would like to note, is my mommys car is dirty :)
See?



I writted her name on the back of the van, lol :) Shh don't tell her! Not sure she knows it's there, or that it was me.. mwahaha

On the other hand when we got home, we made loaded fruit to take to Alicias tomorrow, it shall be super fun!

Doesn't it look yummy? Lol I should probably go upstairs and take the bottle out, i'm sure it's done draining into the watermelon now.

Also I would like to say that we have the best hang out spot in town.. The 20 or so people that come to our house on random nights. Theres atleast 5 people plus Eric, Ben and I in the basement every night.. So some of the lovelies are coming to party the heck out of new years!! Yahooo!! I think the count is up to 15 people right now, lol.. holy moly!! Thats crazy nuts. But, I'm going to be the hottest one at the party.

Bow chicka wow wow I look hot :)! I have perfect hair today, it's pretty exciting news :)
Okay I think that is enough for me. The end.

HAPPY NEW YEARS EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


xox

Bria feels like death

Okay so I have been sick for 4 days now.. 4 freaking days you'd think i'd be getting over it by now, but I feel like it's gotten a little bit worse today. I can't keep anything down, again. I was doing just fine on that yesterday, but today I can't keep anything down. There's about half a bottle of water in my tummy right now and It's trying it's hardest to come and visit my tonsils.. I miss my mommy. I feel bad that I got cranky with her earlier. She has such a healing touch. When I was sick when I lived at home I would crawl into her bed and she'd cuddle me and all of the ickyness in my tummy and throat would go away, but now that im on my own, being sick blows!!

I went into work today for 3 hours to cover Katrinas shift, that poor little lady is sick too.. and so is everyone that works there! Sorry subway customers, today you're getting your sandwhich with a side of influenza enjoy!

Tomorrow I have all day to rest, which will be much needed. I went to bed at a pretty decent time last night, slept until 10, went to work for 11, worked till 2 fell asleep at 330, woke up at 8.. and I could probably sleep until i'm 30 right now.. as long as I don't have to wake up to abuse my rib cage anymore. My body feels like it's 80 years old..  

That is me. I have pulled all of my hair out in frustration and i am cartoonized because being sick has sucked all of the life out of me.

xox

Santa was good to me!

Holy Wow!!... Christmas came and past, thats pretty rediculous if you ask me.. It went by so quickly. Now I`m just waiting for summer to come just as quickly. I got A LOT of useful items for christmas and i`m very thank-ful for them. We had a really great family dinner, and family brunch it was pretty fantastic. I haven`t yet uploaded any of the pictures but I will soon!! The only down side to christmas was I got sick! there were too many infected people in my house and yesterday I woke up half dead. I went into work coughing and barfing my guts out, it was pretty unpleasent...  Thankfully Katrina came in early for me. I dont know what I would have done without her... I was so uncomfortable at work. The sink out front is broken, and so we can`t wash our hands in the sink out front, we do it in the back before we come out. But I`m obviously sick and coughing constantly and custoemrs cant see me washing my hands, one lady looked pretty nervous that i didnt wash my hands, but i TOTALLY did!!When I`m at work, and i`m sick I wash my ahnds every like 15 minutes cause I don`t want to spred it around, so I guess thats a good thing. Unfortunatly though, I didn`t get to go to Erics moms side for christmas. That really bumemd me out, I was looking forwad to seeing everyone, but I didn`t want to infect anyone, especially the babies. So I stayed home and had a much needed nap and a loooooong rest.. i sat infront of the TV after I woke up and I didn`t move, not that thats NOT normal haha.. But I feel soooo much better today. Not coughing near as much and my head isnt spinning and Im not throwing up, my ribs hurt A LOT and when I cough tooo much my body aches a lot, but thats just normal i suppose. I should be up and running at peak efficientcy by tomorrow! woowoo

Today the store was soooo freaking DEAD!! I left an hour and a half early. We served like 15 customers NOT EVEN... I did a lotttt of cleaning, i left 2 different lists of everything I did and when I left Derril was staring his own. So I left at 1230 instead of 2, which is nice. I can be chilled out and showered before we leave for Welland to take Heather home, and we should be able to leave right at 2 instead of 230 or 3, so that shall be super duper. We`re going to check out the boxing week sales at the mall before we come home, and the boys are currently grocery shopping... :) haha

Okay thats enough for me right now!!

xoxox

2 Days till christmas!!

Wow..
ALL the gifts we were buying are bought
ALL the gifts we bought are wrapped
And We're ready to go! Thats super duper excited..
I really can't wait till christmas, I just love the hustle of christmas day, of cooking and the kids running around, and moving hot things around running children.. I can't wait. It's gonna be so great!! I'm really happy that everyone is coming to my house for dinner, thats really neatt!! First house, first christmas.. AWESOME!
Today I have to work 4-1130pm.. And it's 2pm right now which really sucks. I'm kinda really tired so i might lay down for a little bit, that will probably be a good idea. Cause tomorrow I have to work 6-2.. So thats going to such a LOT!! I think we should work at like 9am on christmas eve but i gotta be there at 6.. boo!
But on the plus side, we got 2 christmas gifts early! YAY!!!.. Erics parents got us a kitchen table and charis for c hristmas, which is so amazing!! I love it just so much!! It makes me feel grown up lol. And it also gives us extra sitting rom for everyone that is coming over christmas day. Justin got me a slow cooker and 2 slow cooker recipe books, which is so awesome! I am so very excited about it, because it looks soooo pretty, and its just so pretty and it will really help for christmas day. We have 13 items on our chinese buffet christmas list.
Tiffle
Punch
Rice x3
Chicken Tao
Dry garlic pork
Cressants
Beef Teriyaki
Pepper Steak
Lemon Chicken
Lo mein
Chicken Balls
EXCITEMENT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So, thats about all I have to say right now.

The New Me

I am going to get a new notebook, and I'm going to dedicate it to the new me. With the new year approaching, I feel like I would love to make some life style changes. Not new years resolutions cause I feel like you can make a resolution to yourself whenever you need to. I would like to start it in the new year, because I feel like with a new year, and a new attitude anything is possible. I have many alarms set on my phone hoping that I can pick up the habit and remember to do them so that I can just do it without even thinking and make that part of who I want to be.

1. I'm going to start eating healthier. I'm going to try and track what I eat by making simple menus for myself, and keeping track of easy simple menu ideas I can make for myself that don't put a lot of crap into my body

2. I'm going to cut down on snacking. I'm not going to cut it out completely, because I have a bad habit of it, and I don't want my body to constantly crave the sugar i so often put into it.I'm also going to make tasty healthier snack options when I do feel like I need something other than chips and chocolate.

3. I'm going to start going for walks again, every morning. If I miss my walk in the morning, I will go at night. I'm going to make it a goal to get outside and be physical for at least 20 minutes to start. When I am comfortable with 20 minutes, I will increase my activity time. When the summer comes I am going to add in things like roller blading and bike riding.

4. Along with my walks I am going to use the wii fit every day. I'm hoping to make this an after dinner activity. 

5. My mommy is moving, and said that her exercise glider is going to come and visit me. Aside from my walks, and the wii fit I'm going to use the glider for an hour everyday. This hour is going to occur in between 10-11am, because I'm going to exercise and watch Ellen at the same time. This way I don't get bored, and am tempted to stop doing it because I have nothing to do while I'm on it. Also, if I get tired and need a washroom break or a water break I can take them on commercials, this way the break is no longer than 4-6 minutes long.

6. I have a habit of not eating. I got into the habit a little while ago, but I never stuck to it, because I had many other things to worry about, I let my bad days control my life and when I had bad days, i wouldn't eat. I did this for control. I couldn't control when I had a bad day or how long it would last... 1 hour 3 days 1 week.. But I'm going to keep myself going and force myself to make the decisions I know I need to make. I'm going to make sure that I eat at least 3 meals a day, and try and schedule them the best that I can. 

7. Instead of just being interested in something and knowing very little about the field, I'm going to research things of interest. Lately I've re discovered my love for interior design, and I've been watching A LOT (like 20 hours a day) of the home and garden network. This has re inspired and re created my love for interior design. I'm going to make a habit of looking further into the things I love doing. Photography - Teaching - Designing - Creating

8. I have decided I need to be more creative. I'm creative with ideas, and throwing parties and things that that. I would love to focus this into more crafty things. Kat has really inspired me to do more things like that. I would love to learn how to knit, Kat is teaching me that. My mom gave me a lot of her old crochet books, I'm going to teach myselfe how to do that. I have also decided that once the holidays are over I'm going to use the craft room for what its for.. crafts. 

9. I would like to make a habit of volunteering somewhere.. At the hospital, or vet office.. something like that! Maybe once or twice a week would be really cool.

10. Last but not least, I want to make a stand against bullying. My poor little cousins are scared to go to school because of the bullies. I would love to try and make a voice for those who don't have one. I realize that the schools have a 0 tolerance for bullies, but that doesn't seem to make them go away. And I know that nothing will, but If I can get my cubs and others in scouting involved in something that will make a loud voice against bullies, and change even just one life, then my goal is accomplished.

Those are my 10 promises to myself for the new year!! What are your new year traditions going to be?

xox

The Holidayss!

Wow so christmas has approached so quickly!! I really hope that summer comes just as quickly as winter did. I've finally gotten over that horrible week I had and with the holiday excitement, i'm finding it not so hard to be happy about things. Laurie came to visit last night, and she said she's having a jewellery in January to have something to get over the blah period once christmas is over. I'm goign to see about throwing a fantasia party in February and then the buck and doe is in march and the wedding in may!! So I should be okay with things sto look forward to, which is important.
I may need to move my councelling appts up instead of farther apart, I really don't think I'm handelling it well.
I got to give Eric his christmas present early, and I'm really excited that he really loves it. He didnm't have any idea what it was, and I'm totally proud of that! I got him a bearded Dragon and he names him Jeff!! Thats the greatest name for a lizzard, ever!!

Isn't he the cutest? He's the best! He's so active and he uns around his cage like all the time. Today though, Sebastian and Mittins were stalking him from the end of the couch.

Sebastian jumped from the couch INTO the tank!! BAD KITTY!! He knocked his hole body off the glass. HE shifted the tank back, and Eric beat him up. Silly Silly Kitty!! This worries me now. I was starting to calm down about Jeff vs the cats, but now I'm kind of nervous

so tierd!!!

I should know better then to stay up late but I just wasnt tired last night. I was 100% wide awake, until 3am!! I always stay up late on the days i have to work in the morning, cause im a doofus. I just want to go back to bed!! Hopefully I can last through my shift lol. 

Okay, so all week I have had to really convince myself its not thursday and now that its thursday i cant convince myselef that it is, is that stupid? On Tuesday when I was at work all day I was convinced it was Thursday. No one could make me think differently. Its like when I looked at the calender at work to write the dates on the bins I was prepping it was such a struggle to write down tuesdays date. It was like choosing between having your toes chopped off or your fingers.. you had to really think about which one.. lol.

Baby Steps

so last week was one of the hardest weeks I have ever had to get over. Nothing really major happened, it was just an emotional roller coaster. I don't even know how many times I called my mom crying so hard I couldn't even talk to her. She knows that when someone calls her and blubbers in her ear that its me, ha. In a sense I feel accomplished, cause I swore I wouldn't make it through the day.. Each day was such a struggle and I felt like I just couldn't do it. I had to call in to work one day, and that made me feel just terrible. i didn't want it to have to come to that but there is no way I would have survived through my shift. I barley made it through that day. I feel like that week was probably top 2 worst weeks ever for me.. the first week being the week I decided to finally get some help. Each day I over come I feel stronger. I argue with my mom all the time about not having enough strength to breathe, but the truth is that its there. You have no choice to breathe, just like you have no say in whether or not you want to skip the bad days. The point is, that I did it. I over came it.. I sought out some more help, some I know that may be a little over due. I am determined to get better, and try and make sure that no one has to ever go through what I'm currently going through. It's sad when you're so depressed that the T.V not working can give you the same reaction as to someone passing away.. That's how I am right now, but today is a good day. It also kinda seems stupid, even on my good days I don't feel happy.. and I don't like that. I used to be the happiest person I knew. I could make any circumstance into something that someone could smile over. Now, if the T.V doesn't work I start to cry.. It just silly stuff, and slowly I'm teaching myself that it's okay to cry. Just because I have a bad day, or a bad week doesn't mean I'm not making progress. The fact that I know that eventually it will get better is progress. The fact that I take in my next breath is progress. It's something that I didn't want to do for a long time.. Now I know that bad days are okay. I just need to remind myself of that the next bad day that comes along.  Depression is not a joke, or anything to be fooled around with. I should of listened to my family and got help sooner. Sometimes I beat myself up for not having money to make christmas happen this year.. 

It's not a very happy christmas season at all, there are a lot of things going on that just aren't good at all... Some things are really bad, and some are not so bad. Either way, I'm determined to do whatever I can to help make christmas happy for my family, I don't really know what is going to happen for that, but I have to be able to help somewhere.. Mom and I and Eric have talked about some ways that I can help, we just got to see if it actually will.. I know that christmas is the family that your surrounded with and all the joy of the season, but if the family your around isn't having a very good christmas season, then there has to be something more.

I'm trying so hard.

Refusing to be sad is one of the hardest things ever.. I feel like a failure when I can't get happy again.. I was doing so well and then I had a really down day, but I sprung back the next day.. Lately this hasn't been happening.. I have felt awful for the past couple days and I just can't get back to where I Was. I don't know what to do. I was on the phone with mom for a half hour last night bawling my eyes out for a stupid reason and I took her advice on how to shake off the bad feelings. It helped me stop crying, but I still feel awful today. I have to convince myself not to cry right now, and I just don't know what to do. I hate feeling like this. It's so hard to try to be happy.. 

I have to go to work in about an hour and a half, and I can't stop crying.. I don't like this. I'm so frustrated.. And the worse part is.. I don't even know what I'm frustrated about..

Stresssss

Okay so today I'm supposed to be working 11-9. it was originally 11-4 but i picked up a shift from becky, she really needed it off, so 11-8 wasn't a big deal. There is a hockey tournament this weekend, so now im working 11-9. I'm just hoping that I don't die. It will be just the 2 people all day. I'm pretty sure that its possible I may explode. We were super busy last night, but luckily we were well prepared. Today I'm going to like triple everything so that it should last until its quiet again. 

On a good note Heather is here :) I'm super excited that I get to see her face. I was kind of grumpy last night, because I was soo sore and tired. Sorry Heather :( But hopefully today will be better. Apparently we are building ginger bread houses, which is exciting I just don't know when. It will have to be in the dark lol

On another note. I completely re-arranged the kitchen. It is MUCH better now.. MUCH MUCH MUCH better and 100% functional. We got our Sanata's choice christmas food yesterday which is extremely exciting. So I organized everything and I moved all of the cupboards around. I also cleaned the living room and finished decorating for christmas :) Hurray! I made a way for my angel to stay on tip of the tree. Dad bought it for me 2 Christmas's ago, and it was laying down on t he top of the tree cause it wouldnt fit. There was a big hole for it to go on top, but there's a pole on the top of our tree, for the tree topper and then the branche4s were getting in the way. So I gathered the three branches that were mostly in the way, and I taped them together and shoved my angel on top and now it works!! So that's super duper exciting.

Anyways that is all :)

xox

P.S it was 4 days again

I honestly dont have a habbit of skipping 4 days of journal writing, its really not like me.. Ive just been so busy!

almost done!!

I have reached 50 000 words! See << Over there! I am really excited! But my story isn't finished yet. I'm hoping to finish it tonight, I'm almost done. I was going to try and aim for 60,00 words, but I think once I'm done this thought I'm goin ggto end it. A suitable young adult/youth novel is 50 000 words, so it's not bad for my first one. Besides I'm tired and I want a break! But I'm impatient and don't want to wait haha.

It's been 4 days again

Wow I havent been on the computer really at all lately. I'm behind on my word count and I used to write in here several times a day and lately I've been too busy. Woirk has really gotten to me. and its not like i have long shifts i just do that then try and fit in everything else i used to do in a dya. plus the morning is my computer time, and i work in the mornings now, so i guess that smye xcuse.

well nothing really is new for me. Mom found a house that she can rent in demerton. So were going to help her fix that place up and get in move in ready, pack her up and move her all in less than a whole month yikes! she got a really good deal ion it though and the owner said we can have a veggie garden and there are cheery trees,m pear, apple and something else trees in the back yard. peach trees i think, should be a good summer for fruits and veggies!!

anyways i think thats it!!.. 

xox

Need more shifts!!

Sooo, I have picjed up 2 extra shifts so far. Sunday morning and Today from 1030-2.. That is pretty exciting I must say. It's kinda wierd to have to work 3 days in a row.. haha... I'm still only on the schedule for 9hrs a week going into the second week of decemeber.. this is not good! Need bigger paycheck! But I'm doing okay picking up shifts, so hopefully I can continue to do so. I have opened and closed now so I should be good to do that if someone needs it. Yesterday it was sooo boring!! I was twiddling my thumbs trying to figure out what to do.. I did some extra cleaning and such.. and I folded napkins.. I went home early. I lost an hour, but it was an extra shift so i guess thats okay. Plus I talked my boss into giving me an extra hour today haha.. She needed to be off at 1130 but that would mean she would hav to rush around to get to her appt on time, so I told her to take the time she needed and I would come in when she needed me to. it's not fair to her to have to rush around trying to get everything in, when help is cmoing in anyway. So I told her she may as well leave when she needs to and have enough time to breathe because that is important!!  :)

Anyways I'm going to go pee now :) and then I'm going to watch a little bit of Ellen before I go to work.

xox

4 days!

its been 4 days since my last post a lot has gone one. i'm back at work and really liking it. it's been really nice.. uhm what else?? My skin hates winter!! Ughh im breaking out everywhre and my hands aer cracking and my legs are so rough and i feel like i have alien skin..

I'm also not sure of what my word count id i just know that i am behind because I havent done anything in like a day.. so im pretty afar behind i would think now..

Ian Nathan Ben and Eric had their birthday party last night.. it was pretty amazing! soo many epolep can fit in our house its pretty awesome haha there was: Eric, Bria, Ben, Jodie, Nate, Darren, Andrew, Amber, Alyssa, Chris, 3 people Ben works with, Margaret and Scott and a person who helped them with thw bday cakes.. uhmm,, who else? I think thats it.. 17 people.. youll notice that Ian didn't come to his own birthday party. silly boy.. We had so much fun. Eric didn't come to bed till 630am!.. I got up for work a half hour later.. so if he didnt go to bed till 630 then people were still here tilll then.. i feel bad for those who were sleepign in the basement.. they had to wait to go to bed poor people!!..

What else? Oh I volunteered at 10 thousand villages. it's this really neat store type of thing. The organizaition pays 3rd world countries half of what they compromise on. they use that to buy materials and such and they make all of these amazing things for yor home like baskets and decor.. christmas decorations.. etc... they garuntee the workers are earning fair wags and yeah i thought that was pretty amazing. so many beaitful things there!!

uhm i think thats all the significant things that happened really.. Everything else was just me being alive for rthigns.. AHAHA :) uhmmm.... okay thats it.

xox

31884

yay me! My word count is coming along beautifully I'm very excited! yipeeee

Okay so yesterday We had cubs.. We had a plan.. it was to make their binders efficient, put all of the papers in and sort them so that they all have the same things in them .. But not all of the kids brought their binders.. grr!! So we had to wing it. we played games and we did some songs and skits and cheers.. and played more games.. haha.. They were really hyper so I guess it's better that we didn't do very much. lol :) 

I love those kids <3

xox

I'm at 30169 words!

Hey guys! I'm very excited that I have finally reached 30000 words! I'm uploading a picture of my stats on the website. I have boxed the most important stats in purple. I'm a head of the game and very excited! I'm not doing too bad for starting on the 3rd day! eeeee!! woowooo! This means I can actually finish this book! I've written 30169 words in exactly 2 weeks! yahoo

NANO Badge

I have decided I am going to make a really cool thing to remember this. I'm going to make like a certificate. I'm going to use this badge, maybe a few other ones.. and I'm going to write my word count, my novel description and the name of my novel and such.. it's gonna have my name on it and its gonna look really really. I'm very excited. Perhaps I will make it all 3-D and pretty, not sure yet! yay!

haha i forgot

i was so excited about uploading my first video that i didn't leave a link for it!

here it is!

Click here to see the video!

xox

My first youtube video

Ah! Finally recording my first 3 videos for you tube. they are kind of lame and I say "and um" a lot in all of them! But I am excited to finally have those up! More are coming soon! I know I am going to be the only one watching them, lol but i'm still gonna do it!

xox

Amazing!

one more thing .. eric cleaned the basement! cleaned it and re arranged it.. this does not surprise me but it does make me very happy.. I went downstairs after work and I was like omg what happened!? lol

the end.

red is erics favourite colour :) haha

back to worktoday

i went back to work and im not really sure how i feel about it. i was very excited but it feels weird to be back. especially since today i had the most human interaction i have ever had, and i had to move to quickly.. It was very over whelming, but i am glad to be back. my boss is being great shes bringing me back very slowly starting with 10 hours a week and i think that i can handle that.. but we will see

Back to work today!

yikes I'm pretty nervous about going back to work. I went into the backroom last night to get my schedule and it all seemed so foreign to me. I am excited about going back, actually. I have been waiting for today for a while. I think I'm finally ready,but we will see. 

Last night I had the most amazing night!! I invited Aunt Linna and her 4 kids over to play in the leaves because they had a P.D day from school. This made me want to invite Mom and Justin too, so I did. And then I decided that I was going to invite Amy&Darby and their 2 kids for a full house! We had a lot of fun eating spaghetti, spilling water on my yahtzee game (Thanks mom!) and laughing until we were all crying.. it was a really great night and Im proud to say i hosted it all in my own house! that was rather exciting. like super duper exciting!! :)

xox

Yawn

Okay so I have been having the most amazing week... I'm starting to really be able to feel happy.. instead of just accepting that i probably am happy but not feeling it.. I have actually been feeling it this month and it's really exciting that I can feel things again.. my only issue is that I have been sleeping in.. When i first started trying to get better I was up early every morning... I had a lot of problems getting out of bed but I still did it.. This past week I have been sleeping in until 9.. and I don't really like it. I enjoyed getting up early.. I really just wish that I could do all three.. Get up early - Have a good week - Be able to control my emotions. When I was watching TV on Wednesday night.. I got soo sad and depressed.. both of my shows were really depressing and they made me cry and just feel awful.. I've never felt like that watching these shows before. They need to learn to be more perky so that I can keep watching them.. I'm just really confused.. :(

Playing in the leaves

Today I made a huge breakfast and we finished it off by playing in the leaves, outside. I sat in a tree while Eric raked. It was a lot of fun.. I have never really climbed a tree before... I know of one time and it was barley effort cause it was so low.. anyways.. i have a tree i can climb in my backyard and im excited.. after i climbed in the tree we playing in the leaf pile! it was so much fun!!... like it must have looked weird these 3 grown adults playing in leaves, laughing hysterically and having bunches of fun! haha

VloggingOkay so

as of right now.. i am going to film my first video today.. I am doing it on a webcam so it' not gonna be as pretty but until I get a cord that will plug into the computer, this is all I'm gonna do for now.. I have been wanting to do vlogs for a while. I'm going to film a couple today. As many as I feel like, like I might get only one done and then be like " thats its!" but im hoping to do a couple more.. and then Ill edit them and put them up on youtube! Excited! yay

okay thats it for now!

xox

Busy Busy!

Okay so when I got back from heathers I wanted to organize so very badly! I completely emptied the cupboards in my kitchen and made them really pretty and efficient. Before if you wanted something out of the bottom cupboard you had to litterlly put your body inside of the cupboard to fish it out. I figured I had forever to organize it because we're not going anywhere, this house is perminent. But then I thought to myself "gosh self,  you're pretty dumb.. why wait to organize them? idiot" so I did just that. Now I can actually find the lid to the tupper ware container that I want and I can easily get anything from the bottom cupboard that I need. I also organized the shelf in the kitchen. I used to put anything and everything on that shelf and thought that someday I would clean it off.. Well that somday was sunday and I made it look absolutely fantastic. Next I brought down all the boxes int he craft room closet and put them in the basement in storeage where they belong. I am going to finish putting up the pictures today I hope. Erics dad was telling me that I had the pictures in the wrong places because I didn't have the nails in the studs I only had them in the drywall. But I don't really know much about that stuff and they seemed fine in the dry wall so I think im going to get Eric to help me so that I can put the nails into the studs properly. The next time I go to moms Im going to bring home the table shes giving us, so that my craft table can finally come up here YAY!! 

Soon I am going to be posting pictures of my wonderful organizational skills. :) I'm gonna be adding tips and tricks to hide junk and make it look like it belongs!

xox

Back from heathers!

I got to see H-Butt this weekend!! She moved into a pretty apartment! So I helped her. I went down with Ron and Peggy and we had a wonderful weekend. We had a hair dying party and moved and unpacked her whole apartment, it looks fantastic. We also went to a million stores filling her empty cupboards of things that went missing since she last had her own place. I havent seen her in such a long time, I missed my best friend, it was really nice to be able to spend time with her. We even got to have a sleep over! Yay!.. I found the cutest little ginger bread man at this second hand store for only a dollar!! he was brand new he still had his tags. I was very excited with my dollar purchase! isnt he cute?

Heather and I rocked our sock monkey hats at walmart, people were jealous!

Today I also reached over 10000 words for NaNoWriMo! YAY!.. I started writing some on the truck on the way to welland, but it was soooo very bumpy!! So I couldnt stand to write much ... But I wrote maybe like half a page.. not even i dont think.. it was 2 and a half small /medium note book pages.. anyways.. i ended up writing like over 2 thousand words.. they just kept coming and coming didnt even have to think about it.. it was great!! okay thats it!!

My hair smells soo good. I love the smell of hair dye in my hair yum yum!

100 posts!

This is my 100th post! and though I don't really have much to say. I am at 3825 on my word count for NaNoWriMo. And though that is quite far behind I am very excited about it. I'm sorta at a little bit of a hault like I explained in a previous post. I'm not really sure what to say, but I will find something that will inspire me to write more. 
Okay so I'm kinda sad. It is snowing outside. I don't like snow and I want it to go away. It is november now and it's been cold for a long time, so I'm assuming the snow is gonna stay this time. I have errands that I wanted to run today so it better quit it! I have so many reminders on my phone... I really wish I would remember things, but I just don't! I have to remind myself that I wanted to drive Eric to work today! Anyways..
1 more sleep until I see Heather!! I am not really excited for the physical activity that is required for moving.. but we are having a hair dye party which does excite me. I've got my little packing list going and I'm gonna do laundry at some point today. We are staying in Welland for just one night, but I have soo many things on my packing list!! haha.. Just so i can stay occupied in the car. If I remember, or get around to it, I am going to find a notebook (that won't be hard) and write the last paragraph in my book and then i'm just gonna write it while were in the car. That way I don't loose a lot of time again. I'm not sure what I am supposed to be at, I can't really figure the site out. By my calculations I am supposed to be at 8335 words. I am 4510 words behind. This is not good. But I'm gonna try my best!! I'm hoping to finish the novel even if I don't do it by November 30th. 


Anyways thats enough for me. <3 Peaceeeeeee

NaNoWriMo

I just started about 2 hours ago on my novel. My word count is at 1727.. Daily you are supposed to write 1667 a day in order to reach the goal of 50000.. so in order to catch up im supposed to have 5001 words today!! Or 6668 words tomorrow.. That is a lot considering that I just started. I wish I had started earlier but I think that I can do it. Im starting to think that I am not sure how to keep writing but some how I'm still going!! I think that I need to incorperate the theme of the novel into the book more but then at the same time I don't really know how.. so I'm just going with the flow.. and im pretty excited with the out come!!

National Novel Writing Month

Sometimes in order to get your mind of things and completely loose yourself in another world... you need to write a book! It doesn't matter if you are good with words or not.. all that matters is that you want to do it. I have decided that I am going to try and write a novel! I am behind I have 0 words so far.. and I may not be able to start until thursday.. But once I get going on writing something I can write for hours!! and there's not very much I am doing lately.. so I may as well do something. It will be good for me. Cause now I have a planned activity everyday that means something to me. I have been meaning to write a book for a while now. I have 2 ideas that I want to write. I'm not sure which one I will do. both are fictitious but one has a little more reality to it, because it's sorta based on someone I know very well! but the other one seems cool too! Anyways.. I don't really know how to star either story but now that I have a deadline I will do it! .. Somehow! haha.. 

I encourage everyone to write a novel this month!! visit http://www.nanowrimo.org/ and sign up! The goal is 50,000 words! So you need 1,667 words a day to complete the goal!

Halloween Tips - Half Price!

So it's always nice to treat yourself to a little bit of un-healthy delicious tasting not very good for you calories! Halloween candy! Since I am too old to trick-or-treat I buy my halloween candy november 1st at half price. I get somethign that I know I am going to enjoy yet... take a while to go through. This year I bought lolli-pops.. I am a sucker for suckers! Love them to bits! So I bought a bag of those for like 3 dollars and it's going to last me probably until I'm married.. That's half a year away! Eric also bought some chocolate bars but I know those arent going to last the boys very long at all! :)

Another tip would be to stock up on half price halloween costumes. If you have a costume in mind I suggest picking it up after halloween. Costumes, masks, hats etc.. all go on sale on november 1st. This also gives you an excuse to buy crazy make-up. You can always use razt make-up for a night out at the bar, playing dress-up with younger siblings or cousins or theme nights at girl guides or scouts. Something along those lines. One thing I ALWAYS make sure I do when I'm shopping for a halloween costume is, I look for something I can use it for again. I try and come up with a couple characters just to see how many I can come up with. This year I bought a purple witch hat, but it was so crazy looking that I gave it to my mom, punched in the point and called her the mad-hatter! I bought a black hooded cape.. which I can reuse next fall as part of a darth vader costume for the Dorchester Cub Camp because the theme is Star Wars!

So that's my first tips and tricks blog post, hope someone found this helpful!

Happy November!!

Happy November! That is something my mom has said to my brother and I ever since I can remember! Every month on the first day she would say that. I can remember that I used to think that she was silly for saying it even when we were older.. Cause if she said it infront of friends they were all confused. She continued to say it when I moved out on my own. Then one month she forgot! And I was the most upset person ever.. I thought of the most horrible things in my head.. Shes mad at me.. she hates me.. why hasn't she said it? ..  So then I asked her and he had the biggest smile on her face, while I'm thinking of the biggest most horrible lecture is coming my way.. and she simply forgot.. And ever since then she has said it to me every month without fail! Unless I beat her to it! ... Just goes to show that sometimes the littlest thing that seems so silly.. can really mean a lot to you.

I love you mommy :)

Arrrrr

Okay so I have decided I want to stock up on halloween costimes. It'll be tonnes of fun.. cause then I can dress up as whatever I want! and if someone asks me if I have a clown nose I can say yes! Haha.. Anyways..

I feel sick.. It may be that I ate shitty food today .. or that my tummy just doesnt like candy .. I have a headache and the door bell keeps ringing with lovely little trick or treaters. But I think they are done for the night .. its kinda late.  and kinda late means eric will be coming home soon.. Im getting kinda tired which I shouldnt be because I napped until like 1pm . but I'm tired... I want to wait up for him though.. blaaa!
By the way I spent atleast 10 minutes editing this blog to make it pretty! I hope it turns out well or I will be sad!

Happy Halloween!

Phew!! I am so very tired. Braving all 4 kids for the night was pretty tough! they took over my house! hahaha. We had a lot of fun though! Eric unfortunately had to work all day yesterday and the kids missed him. They asked for me to "think about it" next time so they can spend time with Eric. lol... like i purposely planned that they couldn't see him. Those silly kids!! ... So we played outside for most of the day. The boys roped Ben into playing 4 square.. with only 2 people. They all put on their Halloween costumes and played. When Micah picked up a sword and stated playing with it it was soo funny because she's a princess.. And it just looked odd when she was dressed all pretty yet slashing people with swords. I got some pictures of them in their costumes and some really nice pictures of them dressed up. We played outside until dinner time and then we ate and everyone stayed inside and watched a movie.. and then soon it was bedtime.. boy that sucked! haha.. 3 out of 4 kids ended up sleeping in my bed because none of them would leave each other alone.. I think that it worked out good though. Because Micah was sleeping in my bed.. so Josh and Amber knew that if they woke her up i would not be a happy camper!! And so that left Cody in the craft room with no one to play with.. thus everyone slept! Lol.. 

So Ben and I were hanging out downstairs and i was like falling asleep and then the next thing i knew Ben put in my favourite movie! Okay so I lost this movie like a year ago. i still have the case.. but the DVD is gone and it broke my heart because I just love it so much.. And so I was falling asleep my eyes were closed and then I heard "Bri!.. Brianne!" And I looked at Ben all confused and he pointed at the TV and TADDA STARDUST WAS PLAYING!! He downloaded and burnt it for me. I was sooo excited!! I forced myself to stay awake and watch the movie. Then around he middle Eric came home!! :) I was excited to see him. After the movie Eric took me to bed and moved kids with me and cuddled me to sleep and tucked me in :) Gosh I have it made!

I have been feeling pretty good these past couple days! I go for my license tomorrow.. so hopefully I get that back because Amy is coming home on the 8th and I WANT TO SEE HER!! Also that means I can try and look for another job. I want to take a PSW training course because I want that so very badly! I would really like to go back to school or take a course.. I see me making more of myself than just a sandwich artist. though I am kinda glad to be going back to work next month. We will see if I can handle it. Eric has been working so much and I know if I had his hours i would just die.. 

anyways that's it for me!



BOO!!

The Brats

so I get to babysit the munchkins today! I'm ready for my patients to be worn completely out! haha! Im hoping to do a photoshoot with them.. perhaps I will bribe them with cookies or something. I called aunt linna yesterday with a list of demands hahaha. Eric will be at work all day today. Ben on the other hand will be home. So I feel sorry for his patients as well. :) 

Anyways this should be fun :)! And theres a park at the end of the street we could play there too! I'm kinda excited. I hope they co-operate for the photoshoot cause it's pretty important to me.. The sun is not really out so the lighting may not be perfect.. but i'm gonna try!

Look I made a pretty picture!!

Photography

Okay this is my plan. I want to actually get back into my photography. I am going to purchase a new camera. A good digital one and Im going to get everything I need to go with it. I will start a bin of photo props that I can use for kids and what not and start practicing on my adorable little models... I miss doing things that I love. I just dont have the camera do to it with... I need models and I need an art portfolio.. Because I can fix this computer up and put the software on it that I need to edit them.. thats another thing I love about pictures.. re-creating them.. I have never felt so motivated towards something in my whole life  .. except wedding planning.. I used to be soo into my photography and when I stopped caring about my life I stopped caring about that and I hate that about me .. so that is what I am going to do.. I am going to get myself back into that and start working towards something that I love. If I can really get myself into it then I can probably make a life around it. Photographers don't really make a lot of money but I can certainly try!


The camera that I need in order to do this is not that expensive. Eric mentioned to me last night that he wants a good camera.. Anything Canon is AMAZING.  If we go with Cannon I can use the lenses I already have.. that would save money there.. I already have a Tri-pod.. that would save that money .. if I could find it! I know lots of people that would let me practice to build up a portfolio.. I have all the training that I need in order to be qualified.. and i've been inlove with pictures as long as I can remember.. I could start up lessons or something like that and teach people about cameras.. I even made my own flyer once.. I could send it home with all of my cubs and spread the awareness!! that could be a side job to help pay for the wedding..


Oh this is so very exciting.. I could really do this!! 

hmm

its been 4 days since ive posted in here and i dont really have much to say!! not very much has happened... we had our halloween cub party i dressed up like a purple witch!! was tonnes of fun! ... i looked pretty awesome!! We got 2 new registrations.. thats pretty cool too.. amy and i are on skype planning out wedding stuff not that there is much planning to do .. right now anyways ... i showed her the dress and the center pieces.

the end

One more thing

We got the pictures back!! I am so excited! Kristin did a great job!!

Hurry up wedding!!

The more shows I watch. The more I talk ahout it... the more I want this wedding to hurry up!! Watching the "to-dos" on the website... and looking at the "to-dos" Wedding SOS.. I have a feeling we are doing it wrong!! I know I still have 6 months until the wedding ... but really? Thats NOT a lot of time!! .. Okay well it is to me,, perhaps I should make a list of everything i still need to do... everything i need to get and what not. Oh boy... Once everything all comes down to the crunch time.. the wedding wont be far enough away .. but for right now I'm getting impatient!

Boredddddddddd

We went grocery shopping today!! We didn't really need groceries, but we're stocking up on stuff we will use while it's on sale.. Now that we have a freezer we can do that! Excitement!! We went to walmart.. gosh I love grocery shopping there! Ben also bought The Big Bang Theory season 3... thats also exciting! .. thats pretty much all we did today ... I wish Eric didn't have to work all the time!! Except.. he had 2 days off this week.. just thursday was spent running around constantly.. so it didn't feel like a day off together .. and monday .. was a long time ago.

But he has those same days off this week .. so hopefully we can spend a whooooooole day together :)!

That would be nice..

Combine

okay so my mom introduced me to this game on facebook.. and I have been ADDICTED TO IT!.. like I used to be addicted to Pyramid Solitaire Ancient Egypt.. But that was pretty much just to pass the time.. This game I actually am addicted to.. like im playing it right now and I don't even want to do this journal posting because o this game its quite ridiculous! Its kind of like tetris.. except its little balls I stacked them up so I could give you a better idea of the game. what you do is you have to line up 3 of the same colour.. now the balls dont drop down you can leave them at the top until you figured out your move.. and you can switch which way they go cause they arent always the same colour.. But when you line up 3 in a row, another ball appears.. So if I line up 3 greens the ball turns yellow... 3 yellows the ball turns orange.. and so on up that colour scale on the left.. I can't get passed 50000 points.. and yesterday i couldnt even get up o that lol.. I want to beat my moms score so badly.. lol i think thats why im so addicted once i beat her score im sure i will be bored o the game but for right now this is what i eat breathe and sleep!! ahaha I am such a sad excuse for a human being!!

Then end

The first snow fall

 It is October 22 and THERE IS STILL SNOW ON T HE GROUND!!.. It started snowing last night. Mom said that there were even white-out conditions and she didnt know what side of the road she was on when she was driving home!.. That is terrible!!! I expected the snow not to last over night because the first snow fall never does. Well This time IT LASTED!! what the heck!?! I dont understaaandd!! It's not deathly cold outside so its NOT ALLOWED TO SNOW!!! The first snow fall never lasts over night especially when the snow is as wet as it was yesterday... but as you can clearly tell with the second picture IT IS STILL HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Also I would just like to throw in that I did ALL of my laundry yesterday!! :)

Anyways on a different note. Today is Micah-Lynns Birthday.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MIKEY!!!! You're the big 3 years old!!!!!

Washing machine!!!

This morning we picked up our laundry machine!! boy am I excited!! It's pretty rediculous!! We did our bedding and allll of our clothes and towels and cloths and tea towels... lol im excitement of having a washer. Were still doing laundry.. I should fold some of it and get off of facebook!! Mom addicted me to 2 new games.. I saw her playing this bubble popp game and I really liked it and then she showed me another game called combine and I fell inlove I have been playing it for hours!! Its definatly time to get off of here!!

So Eric picked me up at my moms at 930am.. I didn't see the inside of my house until after one!! It's pretty retarded!!!... I was soo sick of being in the truck i didn't think I could last much longer I never ever wanted to go out again... Though I have been agitated all day, so thats prolly why. I usually love being in the truck.. and our.. especially since I've been home all the time!!

We've also been watching cop shows since we got home!!
Lol uugggh

okay im gonna get off here and fold laundry!

I should fix my nail polish

So I came to moms last night so I wouldn't be late for my appt today ... My appt felt like hell.. It just wasn't a good hour for me... But not every session is super great, their not supposed to be .. I'm not doing very much better but I guess I'm not doing worse..
She basically said the same stuff my mom did about the whole friday incident.. I still feel awful about it.. and everytime I think about it I just want to die.. Eric has been so great with keeping my moods steady.. Everything is better when he's around.

I get to go to cubs tonight.. I'm pretty excitedf about that I have missed every meeting aside from the first one. I should egt my license back in two weeks.. so I need to practise!! I'm not the best driver so I really need to start working on that.

Today we also took the puppies to get their shots, and we had breakfast for lunch.. I love breakfast so it was pretty great :)

Mom and I stayed up last night and had a really nice mother-daughter evening.. Moms are so good for the soul.. and broken hearts..

Also we get to go to sauble tomorrow. Wonder if I can convince the boys to play on the beach with me <3 that would be super great! :) I really feel the need to decorate.. I wonder if I could do that .. I wanna d ecorate the craft room I need a table to put in there.. I should make it like a beauty room/craft room.. make it uber girly. im curretnly using it for storage ... but those boxes can be moved to the basement once I clear all the current boxes out of the one storage closet and put it into the other one.. that way our stuff is off the basement floor incase of floods... Annd I kinda need access to the dryer now that tmoorrow we can officially do laundry at our own house!! Yahooo!! That is really exciting.

Laundry day wont be such a big deal anymore. We wont have to continue going out, and we wont have to stay at Erics parents house all day when we have other errands and such to run. Eric usually only gets one day off, so thats when we do all of our running around together and our together time.. and doing luandry on that day usually implies that we have to stay clsoe to home. now I can do laundry in my own basement!! That's pretty much the best news everrrr!!

Also today I am getting our engagement photos back!! I am soo excited! Plus I get o see Kristin and that makes me smile... I really need to get a USB cord, cause I want to start making vlogsssssss!! I think they would be super duper fun for sureee!! and USB cords are cheap compared to buying the entire camera.. which i will end up doing if we dont get a cord soon! Grrr!! lol..
anyways thats it..hopefully mom will be home soon, because I am boredddddd! The End

my nail polish keeps smudging!!

Seems like when I have days where I don't generally feel anything ... I sleep.  I just woke up from a nap.. I slept for like 12 hours last night .. I really shouldnt of needed a nap.. Especially not at 1oclock!.. Ugh.. and I'm completely zapped of energy.. I was going to do the dishes, and I didnt.. Perhaps Eric will help when he gets home, that would be super..  My dad and I started talking this morning and then he had to goa way for a bit and i told him to message me when he got back so i knew to come back to the computer, because he really needed to talk to me apperently and now he has disapeared... lol silly man!!

Yesterday a lady Eric works with, Bonnie, came over for dinner. She is the nicest lady! She's soo sweet.. We had a really yummy dinner that Eric made, and she brought apple crisp for dessert. She also brought me flowers! She's such a sweetheart!! They are absolutely beautiful!

I also did my nails today and watched Hellcats.. today the talking was FOUR MINUTES ahead of the picture.. ugh it was torture.. but I love that show just so much that I couldn't stop watching it.

anyways im going to get dressed now byebye :)

Blaah

Yesterday I didn't do very much. I was pretty bored all day! Eric worked 1-10 and I think thats the worst shift ever.. I did some wedding stuff on the compute. I typed up the guest list I think I have it finalized. I played with some wedding websites... That took me quite a while actually.. I was playing with music and looking up dance ideas. I finished all of that and was sick of the computer.. and theres nothing else to do!! I have craft books and no materials.. I don't want to bake, because the boys already need to eat what I have already baked. So.. I watched Hairspray. Not that that's a bad thing at all!! I love that movie soo much.. but I was soo bored I didn't know what movie to watch.. I looked at all of them, picked one.. then decided I would like watching camp rock better.. but then by picking that movie I remembered I wanted to watch hairspray, and neither of the boys were home, so this was my chance! Woot... Ben came home to catch the tail end of the movie, I was going to put another girly movie on, but I thought I would spare him. Plus, Eric was coming home in like an hour, so I wouldnt have time to watch the entire thing before he came home. So I put in the Big Bang Theory :) I finished the season we have last week, but I think I am so inlove with this show that it will never get old. Haha.. I'm sure it will eventually, but for right now it's a beautiful thing.

We're getting cable today!! I am soo excited!! I have one more episode of hellcats to watch online.. UGH!! :( I don't like watching that show online because the words are 2 minutes ahead of the picture.. and I have to sit through 6 clips.. it IS worth it however.. I recently remembered that I love Glee and should watch it.. but I didn't know how... Cause I knew how to work the CTV website... so I quickly learned how to work the global site and caught p on glee.. Though I can watch their mouths move WITH the picture.. and there's no waiting.. I wish Hellcats was like that. Since I've started watching Glee I have really wanted to watch Hellcats because it's so slow!! But!! We're getting cable today!! so I can watch them both just perfectly!! I think what I'm going to do is I'm going to write down what days what shows are and what time.. so that I dont miss them. Haha.. I know that seems stupid.. but I havent had cable in over 2 years.. I mean we did at Erics parents.. but we didn't watch our own shows in the evening.. and my entire life when I lived with mom.. I didn't get to pick my own shows.. she also watched her shows in the evening.. Though I liked all of those shows too. now I get my own shows!! I get to finally be a girl and have my very own TV shows.. lol I know that seems lame, but I have never had my own TV shows.. I mean I watched TV with amy and we had our own TV shows when we lived in London.. but we both always forgot.. we barley ever watched TV.. and I'm not really a TV kinda person.. but lately I've been so bored. PLUS the new seasons of everything started!!

Anyways.. since this entire journal entry is just me blabbing... lol... I am going to end it now :)

Dan and Sarahs Wedding

Alright so yesterday we had Erics friends wedding to go to.. It was really nice.. we took lots of notes!!.. Well I did anyway. Lol :) I'm getting pretty impatient for our wedding.. like you dream your whole life of it happening.. you get engaged you start planning and then what?.. THEN YOU WAIT!!! I'm not good at waiting.. anyone who knows me will know that... I just can't do it.. I want to be old already and have my life over with.. I have always been that way.. I just don't want to be who I currently am.. I can't wait to have life over with.. I'm THAT impatient.. Well anyways.. I wish that we would win the lottery already, because I want to have the perfect wedding which it will be because I get to marry Eric... but like it's not going to be as fancy as others.. Plus.. we live in a small town and I don't want to have people traveling too much...

Anyways.. Wedding is 7 months away and I just want it to be may already!! But, June-September went by soo quickly.. Like.. It should be July right now.. thats how fast it went!! Soooo Hopefully winter goes by even faster!! Perhaps I will try to enjoy it the best I can and maybe it'll go by quickly.. cause once January hits time is gonna FLY!!! and I'm not going to be ready even though right now I'm complaining theres too much time!!

Here are some pictures from the wedding :)